Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Continuous, reverent thankfulness

So very much to be thankful for.

As I write this, Robbie is on his way home. We are all looking forward to it so much. It will be so nice just to be together as a family and play games and do a puzzle. Jake usually does not do the Thanksgiving puzzle with us (other than trying to steal the last piece), but this year he picked it out. We also bought a random game to play.

Jake had frustrating day today. He gave blood (needs to get it tested weekly) and then had an appointment with the surgeon to look at the skin graft on his thumb. This is the third Tuesday since the operation and the third time the doctor has examined it. The first week he said it looked good. The second week he was not sure if it would take or not. Today he wanted the surgeon over him to look at it as he was not sure if the bone was showing through. Jake and Debbie were on their way home and stopped for lunch when the doctor called and they had to go back to be examined. Made the day so much longer and we basically came away with "we will see". At least that is as much as Jake shared with me so far. He was pretty overwhelmed when he got home.

Overall he is getting stronger - you can see it in how he walks and moves. He is able to spend a lot less time on his bed and more time downstairs with us. He may not feel like it, but I see it. So much to be thankful for. He is here with us and we will all be together for Thanksgiving. That sounds so cliche' right now - so typical that we count our blessings - stop and recognize the blessings that we have - it is more than cliche' though. A heart that is thankful, truly thankful holds on to peace, joy, hope and faith as a coiled rope; thankfulness changes your entire countenance, it changes how you treat others, it changes how you consider God.

"Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our 'God is a consuming fire.'" Heb 12:28-29

Being thankful we remember the relationship that we have with God and our place in that relationship which brings humility.
"Be careful not to forget the covenant of the LORD your God that he made with you; do not make for yourselves an idol in the form of anything the LORD your God has forbidden. For the LORD your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God." Deut 4:23-24

Establishing a heart of thankful reverence shapes who we are as we move forward through life helping us to evaluate, discern and react with the fullness of Christ - the power of Christ.

So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ. For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, and you have been given fullness in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority. Col 2:6-10

It is very easy to say that I am thankful and honestly have moments of thanks but continuous reverent thankfulness is so very hard. I honestly want more - I do not want things to stay they way they are now so I long for more...long for it to be better...and so easily forget. Perhaps that is the confusion at least for me - thankful does not mean finished - it does not mean we stop moving forward - it is actually the opposite - being grateful leads us forward because we see that God is moving and acting and is not done.

So grateful even for this journey - for we see the majesty of the Almighty in the midst of the storm - he is more real today that he was yesterday and we trust him more and more.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Tom (Daddy)


Anonymous said...

We love you Kirkendall family! Have a beautiful Thanksgiving together. Love the Moreno's

Mari said...

We're on our way to see family in Fresno, but our love & prayers are still with you! Love & Happy Thanksgiving to all of you Kirkendalls from the Kings! :-)

Anonymous said...

I just wanted to say, have a wonderful Thanksgiving with all of your family together. My God bless your precious time together. Thanks so much again for sharing your heart so openly with all of us, for that I am so grateful and blessed.

Barb (Bay Fed)