Saturday, October 10, 2009

Wisdom and Understanding

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:13-15
Blessed is the man who finds wisdom,
the man who gains understanding,
for she is more profitable than silver
and yields better returns than gold.
She is more precious than rubies;
nothing you desire can compare with her...
As a high school senior I memorized Proverbs 3:5-6. It has come back to me time and again holding great meaning and encouragment. In the midst of unemployment depression I heard someone on the radio preaching - actually yelling and I am not sure why - that if we lean on our own understanding then we are not leaning on God. I remembering thinking that was such good wisdom - not searching for understanding but just acknowledging God and trusting him to set the path straight.
At this point in my life though - having come through and still in the midst of this journey - I find myself thinking more along the lines of Proverbs 3:13-15. It is foolish to seek wisdom and understanding - for that is so elusive. Jake tonight said what we all have said, "I just do not get it. I want it all to go away." Seeking understanding is not a bad thing - it is trusting that our understanding is truth which is bad.
Going farther back in the proverbs we find a huge emphasis on love and faithfulness as treasure. Allowing love and faith to cover us as we move toward wisdom and understanding complete turns upside down how and what we seek after. If those are my motivation then it is no longer really about me - for love and faithfulness hold the other in higher regard than self. No it really becomes about the other = that is the prize. Wisdom is not held quiet and guarded for what is wisdom that is not shared? Wisdom not shared is not wisdom. Yet wisdom, knowledge, understanding is well worth pursuing.
As Jake as the big questions why - as we all still ask it - I pray that God would reveal for himself the why, the understanding and the hope for tomorrow. There is such significant hope in the midst of this journey - and we are gaining small glimpses of the why. Today we got a letter from a friend who, because of Jake is back on track with her AA meetings and her plan to get clean and sober. "Oh Lord, continue to use, allow us to understand so that you might still be glorified."
Good Saturday with friends and a special birthday - God has given us such an amazing community and our family continues to grow.
In love, In hope, In peace
Tom Kirkendall

1 comment:

design one e said...

life gives us the test first and then teaches the lesson...patience, Kirkendall family.