Friday, September 25, 2009

Arizona Ice Tea and thoughts on unity

Blessings continue to come in the midst of the journey. 

Jacob got box yesterday from Arizona Ice Tea - inside was a hat and a t-shirt along with some instant tea packets and coupons. Very cool whoever did that - creative and cool. 

Debbie had a conversation with the principal at Aptos High School. We got approved to start Jacob on a computer-based classroom. He only needs three classes to graduate. I get to go in on Monday and meet with them to learn the system - put my CBEST to use! Jake and I talked today about making our kitchen nook our classroom - we get to use the table that he made in wood shop last year. Perhaps there are so many little things begin orchestrated behind the scenes that we do not see. 

We finished the week off by Jacob only having to go to Kaiser in Campbell (30 minutes instead of 45) to give blood again. He and I are here at home. We just got done with medicine and therapy homework. The beginning of the week was much more hectic than the ending of the week. Next week we are at 6 appointments so far. All necessary. I think part of the adjustment is realizing that while we are home we are not yet home. We are still needing to make sure that we protect the time and focus on therapy and recovery - it is a full-time job. Any change causes time of chaos before we settle into routine. I think that one of the obvious parts of this whole journey is that routine is very elusive. Once we think we have a plan and have things and people settled in to routine, the roller coaster changes direction - a new door opens and we need to move through it. In these times of change we need to hold on to our foundation - commitment that is based on trust can weather the conflicts. I must admit that is so difficult. I act and react and want to control and get irritated when the plan that I think is right and that makes sense to me does not happen. 

I really appreciate what Robbie shared in yesterday's blog - that he can share that and be vulnerable about his helplessness and desire to care for us and be there for us is huge. It was hard for him to not get a hold of us by phone as easily and  when he did, it was a hard time. For him to learn and grow through this and to reach out to those around him who are available is part of being embraced by community. I can still remember almost 20 years ago when we lived in Africa at a boarding school and we heard that a dear friend had cancer. She and her family all had a huge part (and still do) of our lives and even getting us to Africa. There was nothing we could do - that is not true - we could pray. We are not helpless we are hopeful and God deeply loves and desire for us to seek him in conversation. 

As I talked to Robbie today it was cool to share the blessings of this week as well as the challenges. It is so cool to be able to mutually share our deepest vulnerability - this comes with time and building of trust - that is God's deepest desire for community. God does not desire cloned unanimity but unity in the midst of diversity and conflict - healthy conflict.  Just as Paul talks about the body being made up of different parts, his Church community is a symphony of individuals blended in beauty. (see 1 Cor 12) Disagreement is not a sin - perhaps how we handle our disagreement is or better yet how we hide our disagreement. 

In the midst of this time with Jacob - though the strain is enormous - part of the challenge is to continue to have healthy conflict with one another - oh how often I fail. Vulnerability and trust moves us away from defensiveness and begins to allow us to understand each other. Put that together with a plan for moving forward and essentially we are all in rehab. 

I think - if I counted right - we are on 13 weeks - 3 months on the 28th. Honestly we stopped counting. Does not seem that important anymore. What is important? Jacob is still Jacob. We are able to talk to him and laugh with him, cry with him and play games. His friends can come and hang out with him and we are starting school next week. In the midst of the continued recovery we are finding wholeness within brokenness. There are so many spiritual lessons in that statement. 

As for praying - continue with prayers for the thumb, depression, rehabilitation and that God would continue to reveal himself and Jake would discover a sliver of what God wants him to do with all of this. 

So blessed by your continued love and commitment to us. 

Love and peace in abundance, 

Tom (Dad) 

3 comments:

rcktgrl88 said...

Robbie, I have been following this blog for only a short while, but I am always impressed by what you write. It's so heartfelt, and often heartbreaking. I'm so sorry that you and your family have to go through this.

Cathryn

rcktgrl88 said...

Tom, I love what you said about finding wholeness within brokenness. Yes, that is what you all will have to do, at least until Jacob is his old self again. Prayers to you and your family.

Cathryn

John Hixson said...

Tom, you said: "I think that one of the obvious parts of this whole journey is that routine is very elusive. Once we think we have a plan and have things and people settled in to routine, the roller coaster changes direction - a new door opens and we need to move through it. In these times of change we need to hold on to our foundation - commitment that is based on trust can weather the conflicts"....Oh, how true that is, Tom! Our Lord prefers that we trust HIM, rather than relying upon routines. The lack of reliable routines has the positive effect of drawing us to look & listen more closely to our Father. Not always easy, but definitely drawing us in the right direction, closer to the Kingdom!
God bless you all, & you'll continue to remain in my prayers. Love from Judy