Sunday, August 2, 2009

Sunday Afternoon

The buzz right now around Jacob is more about trying to figure out a game plan. Burn, ICU, and Brain docs are working together to decide the best course of action. The ICU doctors have talent the lead. You remember a couple of weeks ago that the pulmonary doctors took over when the lungs were the issue. Praise God we made it through that week. Now the ICU has taken over. Though they are on top of things there is still a lot unknown about what is going on inside Jake. Is there a bacteria? Is there a brain issue? Jake's fever last night was once again up to 102 but now is around 99. His vitals are still good and the meds are keeping him peaceful. He fought them through the bandage changes.

Day-by-day we watch and try to figure out what is good and what is bad. So much unknown. If I dwell on the unknown and try to figure out things that I cannot, I freak, cry, get angry...etc. If I focus on the known and on gratitude, I have hope and peace. Remembering where we have come; miracles of his very life from huge amounts of electricity. Thankful that he is breathing almost completely on his own. What is known now is such a blessing.

This verse from Deut continues to come back to me: 29:29 The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law.

The Message puts it this way: God, our God, will take care of the hidden things but the revealed things are our business. It's up to us and our children to attend to all the terms in this Revelation.

I am praying that God brings forward that which the doctors need to know. That which we need to know. And that when it comes we have the capacity and wisdom to know what to do.

And then Paul says this...

2Cor 4:16-18
Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

Eternal things are going on as well. Beyond our control, beyond our vision, beyond our understanding.

5 weeks into this journey we still move forward day by day - not sure what tomorrow brings. Focus needs to be fully on what is seen we are seeing not just physical/temporal but eternal/spiritual things going on. Connecting with God, returning to God, trusting in God. I hope you are reading the comments on the blog. God works through each of us not just pastors, priests, and rabbi's. Through Jesus death on the cross we individually approach God and are released to connect with God and minister to others in his name. Paul calls us a royal priesthood (1 Peter 2). We bring forth the love of God to those we come into contact with - revealing grace, hope, opportunity for forgiveness, change, repentance. That is what this community is all about. That is what is happening.

Robbie, Jensen and I went to church this morning. I realized driving there that we got there because it was the church Jacob wanted to visit. We stayed because we connected to a community and a family with a vision to "be" the church and not just "go" to church. Oh, what an amazing thing to think about unleashing the church to "be" Christ to those we connect with at work, school, home...

Day by day we step forward on what comes visible trusting God for what is not yet known. We do this with Jacob and we do this spiritually as well. Incremental changes to attitude; to love regardless of how we are treated; to forgive regardless of guilt; to be peace in the midst of turmoil. Asking God to strengthen in fill us with his spirit because we cannot do it on our own strength.

Monday begins week 6 - day by day we move forward; packing up Robbie for school; eager to have Jacob wake up; much more eager for restoration.

Jacob, I miss you. School is starting soon and you are not gonna make it to the first day. You are such a blessing, such a joy. We are not done yet. Thousands are praying, hoping, calling out to God. Your life is a blessing to others and through this God is working - in control - loving us.

Love and peace,

Tom (Dad)

4 comments:

Caitlin Hill said...

It was wonderful to see you, Robbie, and Jensen at Genesis again today. I hope you know you are all in our hearts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

I have been following Jacob's story since it was shared with me from the onset. I keep praying to Gloria. I know how busy you are but when you have time take a look at her site. http://gloriasangels.org/portal/index.php
The book about her is coming out soon and I keep thinking of the mantra that was chanted as she struggled for months...Let Go, Let God. Please know that my faith community is praying hourly for Jacob and I offer up my morning and evening prayers for him.

Karen Constantino

Anonymous said...

Tom, Your entry today was absolutely beautiful. And inspiring. We take the shared scriptures to heart and will ask God to guide our day through these ideas. We are praying for Jacob and all of you everyday....our waking prayers and our end of the day prayers are for your family.....and many of the in-between ones too. His banner over us is LOVE, and we join the thousands standing with you, praying with you, praising God for the healing that has already taken place, and looking forward to more incredible healing for Jacob today and in coming days. May God bless you and Debbie, Robbie and Jensen and all your dear family as you continue to do your day's tasks today. Come Lord Jesus, be our Light.

The Christensens

Victoria said...

Rec'd email request to post from Carol:

Tom,
What an awesome God we serve!!!! He is moving and changing you to see how the church is to operate. If we forgive those that hurt us before they ask is a wonderful thing for us. If we love with God's love it makes a huge difference in peoples lives. Repentance is another huge thing if we can only remember it. It all makes a huge difference in our walks with God, how we relate to others, and how we can honestly change the world for Christ. See our programs don't do it 'cause only God can make changes, real changes in us if we let Him have full control of our lives.

If we could grasp who God is then we could see how we need Him in our lives. The church needs to get it that it's about Him and not about us. God isn't servant to us but we are the servants. It's not about going to church but about being in community with one another. God see's and hears all we say and do no matter where we are; in church, at home or out in our cities.

God, we ask that You would continue to touch Jacob's body and bring healing to his mind, body and soul. That You would cause the fever's to cease, give the medical doctors wisdom on what to do for Jacob and give Your peace to Jacob. That when they change his bandages he will be still. God allow him to start to do some responding to his family a little bit each day.

God I pray also that You would be with Robbie as he is getting ready to go back to school and leaving his brother in Your hands to take care of him. Give Robbie Your peace so that he can do the things that You have called him to. Help him to remember he is only a phone call away.

May You continue to put Your arms around this family, let Your peace reign in their hearts, fill them with Your joy for what You have done this far, and the grace to be changed to be more like Your son. God come and be glorified!
Blessings, Carol