Friday, August 7, 2009

Masked freaks and a note from Mom

Necessary pain - we try to keep that in mind right now as Jacob goes through so much discomfort. As they change medicine in an effort to help him start to be aware of night and day and to be on a schedule, he is most uncomfortable during the day. We still have to where gowns, head coverings, gloves and masks which makes it very hot and I wonder what Jacob actually sees when he opens his eyes - foggy masked freaks with shower caps.

Jacob stood up today - they had him in some sort of contraption before I got here and had him on his feet - limp but standing. Progress by simple progress waiting for Jake to emerge from this fog. Trusting that God is still now in control - seeing the spirit of God moving in others because of this and knowing that God's plan - his movement - is by far greater than all else. I told a friend tonight it is one thing to say these things it is another to live it - to put down the laptop and be who God has called me - to people, to family, to myself. I seem to fail so often to be what Christ wants me to be - I am so thankful for grace - for God's forgiveness and willingness to allow me to continue to work on being a little bit more of who he wants me to be.

God is not calling those who are perfect - for there are none to be found. He is calling us in the midst of sin, failure, bad choices - forgiving us, accepting us, restoring us to be his child. I am not really feeling like I am growing stronger...rather, thankfully, weaker...
1 Cor 1:25
For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom,
and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.
Brothers, think of what you were when you were called.
Not many of you were wise by human standards;
not many were influential;
not many were of noble birth.
But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise;
God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.
He chose the lowly things of this world
and the despised things—
and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are,
so that no one may boast before him.
It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
Therefore, as it is written: "Let him who boasts boast in the Lord."


Debbie handed this note to me a little while ago...

This Sunday marks 6 weeks since Jake's accident - Exhaustion doesn't really describe what we're all going through - weariness, rear, anxiety, resentment, anger, worry over the unknowns, helplessness, loneliness - did I mention helplessness, fear, lack of sleep, frustration, longing for this nightmare to be over - yet - 6 weeks ago I had no idea of how many people could so quickly show that they care so much - for Jacob, for Robbie, for Jensen, for me and for Tom. (Not to mention for our dog, Hope - thanks Papa and Lala)...there truly is a sense of wonder and awe as I hear about fund-raisers, as I hear about he hero who 1st pulled Jake to safety, as I think of Jake's friends who have worked so hard to show they care. I never felt so grateful for nurses, Dr's therapists... this is all just "too much for me" at times. But I have to remember this is not too much for the God who is able to do infinitely more than I can ever think, ask, or imagine. My prayer is for Jacob's mind to heal well but ever more so that we can trust God with whoever Jake wakes to be - to Him be all glory.



Love and Peace

Tom (Dad)

1 comment:

Mari said...

It's hard to believe that 6 weeks have passed already since that awful night & shocking call from Chris... Knowing the heaviness of our own hearts over these past weeks for Jacob and all of you, we can only imagine the depth of your sorrow and all of these heart-wrenching emotions you described, Debbie, of this long nightmare that seems so endless. We anxiously read Jacob's daily progress and grasp onto each thread of hope expressed. As school approaches, the reality of Jacob's absence brings more sadness to Chris & all of Jacob's close friends. And yet there is hope and faith that our prayers will be answered and that there will be a great victory dance in the end! So we hold tight to God's promises that He hears our cries and delivers us from all our troubles, that He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds....and we continue on with you, trusting, waiting, holding you up in prayer when you are limp with exhaustion, and believing for healing of Jacob's mind & body for God's glory! We miss you Jacob!!!

Love to you all,
Brad, Mari & Chris King

May Your unfailing love
rest upon us, O Lord,
even as we put our hope in You.
Psalm 33:22