Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Just showing up is huge...

Yea, so long day. Baby steps, but long day. God was present, but long day.

This is from from journal this morning:
"Jacob is still so out of it - shaky ground - the road that seems so long has gotten longer, harder as we are on week #7. God? You There? You still got him? Is my belief in you merely wishful thinking? Are you orchestrating events? Answering prayers? Is this really what is "good", what is "best", what is "right"? Perhaps what I think is "good" is really not that "good" - from your perspective. Is all this trial, this bad, this hard time simply to glorify you and is at Jacob's sacrifice? or are you truly watching out for him?"

"Sometimes just showing up is huge. Taking one step forward. Getting out of bed. In the midst of great pain God is doing more than I can fathom. Just showing up is huge."
God provided me with a lot of unexpected encouragement today - words straight from the heart of God.

First a verse: Ps 34:1-4 from the Message
I bless God every chance I get; my lungs expand with his praise. I live and breathe God; if things aren't going well, hear this and be happy: Join me in spreading the news; together let's get the word out. God met me more than halfway, he freed me from my anxious fears.

Second a section of a song that a friend wrote for us:
God has given his body to you
to wrap you up and hug you
with his love, give you courage
give you hope, and walk with you
this bitter road; give you everything
you need for each new day

Third a message from some new friends we have made through Jacob. It told of their own journey and how God is speaking to them through all of this and their own stuff.

Fourth a poem called Don't Quit from Emma L. one of Jacob's posse:

Don't quit when the tide is lowest
For its just about to turn
Don't quit over doubts and questions
For there's something you may learn
Don't quit when the night is darkest
For its just a while til dawn
Don't quit when you've run the farthest
For the race is almost won
Don't quit when the hill is steepest
For your goal is almost nigh
Don't quit for your not a failure
until you fail to try

Just showing up huge.

Jake is improving and though it is not with the speed and timing that we desire - he is improving. Trusting in God is not about counting on him to do things as we dictate but in releasing to his plan and agenda which is far greater than anything else we may try to plan.

Tomorrow a lot of Jake's friends are starting school and wishing he was starting with them - don't we all. Yet God's plans and timing keeps us humble as we wait and trust in him. Debbie and I are loving Jake's friends more and more as we get to know them - many came by in the last couple of days. We are also praying for them - as often as we think of them. Yeah it is often - they are a big part of Jake's room decorations.

As we go to bed tonight - please pray for sleep for Jacob and for us. Pray for Jake's posse. Pray for more baby steps - even a baby leap?

Love and peace

Tom (Dad)


Rebecca said...

God grant them refreshing rest, sleep devoid of tension and unease and hurt. Just knock them out for the night and raise them up refreshed in the morning completely secure in the knowledge that you will wake them up when you want them up. In Jesus we ask.

Anonymous said...

Yes, Lord, let's have a GREAT BIG BABY LEAP! Please?


Victoria said...

Rec'd email request to post from Carol:

Wow!!! And double wow!!! God is working but He wants us to rest and trust. Rest in His faithfulness that He has brought Jacob this far and to trust that He will bring this work to completion. We have no other hope but God.
He always does things so very well that we end up being amazed.
Blessings, Carol