Saturday, August 8, 2009

Grace and Rest

Debbie sent me a text a little while ago from the hospital - she usually gets going first - "Morning, our Jake slept mostly through the night and is still sleeping - a big goal met!"

Night and day is our goal - as we gently pull him awake - ease him to reality - welcome him back. A message from our friends the Kings tugged at my heart - "we miss Jacob". I do miss him so much and as we end this 6th week there is a gentle expectation growing - a building realization that we may soon have him back. And yet I need to hold on to that lightly for as we all know this roller coaster throws us back and forth up and down. And yet there is hope within an eager expectation as we keep our eyes on the ultimate goal -

Each time I pray for Jake now - I pray for Jessica - see the last post for a link to her story. I got a message last night from a former Jr High student of mine (now an adult) - who is connected to that family and I woke up thinking about her - so much of what that family is going through is what we are going through - God's story is moving encompassing both journey's.

In the midst of all of this we find grace...

"For the Word of God (Jesus - see John 1) is living and active, sharper than any double edge sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account. Therefore, since we have such a great High Priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a High Priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."

Nothing is hidden from God - and yet like Adam and Eve hiding in the bushes, I try to keep my failure from God. God's grace is not fluffy light feathers and kisses that simply make us feel good. God's grace rips us apart and lays us bare in vulnerability. It opens up the wounds of our our heart and rips out that disease that infects us and festers. It is like the burn unit the first week needing to take Jacob into a bath stinging his wounds and scrubbing them - painfully necessary. Jesus the Word of God comes into our lives not to coddle us and allow us to be wounded but works with us to remove that which ruins our lives. Holding firmly to Jesus in the midst of this pain is not and cannot be a Sunday School picture of Jesus in white floating on a cloud. Jesus bring grace with a sword like a soldier removing the enemy that if we allow to remain will simply destroy us. In this strength of Jesus as high priest then we may approach his throne with confidence - grace has scrubbed our wounds and removed the damaged skin and we receive mercy - we awaken from our slumber and fall gratefully into the arms of our Savior - our God - our Master.

In this time of great need, we have grace, we have a High Priest who knows all about us, knows about pain and suffering - first hand, is trustworthy as he uses his sword, and longs for us to receive mercy. To get to mercy we go through grace - grace hurts much more than I thought it would or should but there is rest. Much like Jake I guess getting rest last night - he has to move through the pain to get there.

So thankful for continued unending support of so many.

Love and peace,

Tom (Dad)


Carolyn =^..^= said...

I so appreciate the time you all take to keep us posted on Jacob's progress. I'm praising God for the rest he got last night. Want to share a couple of my favorite verses . . . . Psalm 4:8 'I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.' I've been praying this verse for your family as you all need peaceful sleep. Another verse (Psalm 121:3-4) is comforting knowing that God never sleeps; He's up all night holding Jacob in His arms.

I also appreciate how you are ministering to so many through God's Word and the insight the Holy Spirit has given you - To God be the Glory for what He is doing and will do!

Prayers continue daily for Jacob and your family and now for Jessica.

Bob Duffy said...

Each small step is a miracle at we watch God at work. Breathing on his own, opening his eyes, sitting in a chair, standing, and on and on. All to God's glory. And even more than all this, that God has kept Tom, Debbie and Robbie steadfast in faith. Most of us cannot imagine what you're going through, and we continue to be inspired by the consistency of your faith, and revelation of the very heart of our Father.
We keep praying for your strength, endurance, grace, mercy and peace.
-the Duffys