Thursday, August 13, 2009

Getting to know hope again...

It feels like this journey is beginning to move a little faster - a little more progress. They sat Jacob up twice today. I was in there for the second time and it is just so incredibly exciting to see Jacob start to emerge...

I actually find myself hesitating to get too excited - for we have known this roller coaster - we have known the ups and downs for the last two months...

He is recognizing us.
Reaching for us.
Pushing us away.
Grabbed a towel - the wet one he threw across the room - the dry one he wiped his face.
He is exploring with his hand - feeling the textures.
I see Jacob starting to emerge.
I see hope. Sometimes hope can seem like such a stranger.

Sara Groves sings this song:
It Might Be Hope
You do your work the best that you can
you put one foot in front of the other
life comes in waves and makes it's demands
you hold on as well as your able

You've been here for a long long time
Hope has a way of turning it's face to you
just when you least expect it
you walk in a room
you look out a window
and something there leaves you breathless
you say to yourself it's been a while since I felt this
but it feels like it might be hope

It's hard to recall what blew out the flame
it's been dark since you can remember
you talk it all through to find it a name
as days go on by without number

You've been here for a long long time
Hope has a way of turning it's face to you
just when you least expect it
you walk in a room
you look out a window
and something there leaves you breathless
you say to yourself it's been a while since I felt this
but it feels like it might be hope

There at times that you feel afraid to call it hope - to dare to think that things might be okay - I feel like a cowering dog, flinching at a rolled up newspaper - here it comes - it is going to hurt again. I step through the hospital doors wondering what might have happened since last I was here - hoping, praying, longing for something positive - when it comes fear is right there wondering how long it will last. "In hope, against all hope Abraham believed..."

There are times that hope can feel like such a stranger. It is very nice to get to know hope again. To get reacquainted is quite nice - I really like hanging with hope.

Tomorrow we hope to see Jacob sit and then stand - without the "standing machine".

Love, peace, hope,

Tom (Dad)

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hope can lead back to faith again. . . he WILL do it. Those are such promising signs!!! Thinking of you and praying for you. . .

Cindy Todd said...

So VERY exciting...yet scary! God is good and we can be thankful for that! Can't wait to see what tomorrow brings. Loving you all and praying, Cindy

Sue said...

Praying for you daily...

Wendy Nelson said...

Praise God!!! He is good all the time!! Continuing to pray!

Donna said...

This is wonderful, Thank you God.

Anonymous said...

Awesome! So exciting! Will keep the prayers coming@

Susie Boggs said...

Such a WONDERFUL day !!

Anonymous said...

May God keep all of you "standing" together in His love. Rest well.

Bob Duffy said...

So today Ps. 21 says:
O Lord, in Thy strength the king will be glad,
And in Thy salvation how greatly he will rejoice!
Thou has given him his heart's desire,
And Thou has not withhelf the request of his lips.
For Thou dost meet him with blessings of good things;
Thou dost set a crown of fine gold upon his head.
He asked life of Thee,
Thou didst give it to him,
Length of days forever and ever.
His glory is great through Thy salvation,
Splendor and majesty Thou dost place upon him.
For Thou dost make him blessed forever;
Thou dost make him joyful with gladness in Thy presence.

We rejoice together at God's matchless grace and power.
-the Duffys

The Griffin Family said...

So encouraging! Hope is a great thing! I'll be praying for the progress in standing alone!

Anonymous said...

so good to hear, every day there is change. Always thinking and praying for you all. I am going to find that song and listen to it now!

Mari said...

So excited that Jacob recognizes you & is coming back!!! :-) We'll pray for tomorrow and standing without machine. Hanging with you in hope and trusting in His faithfulness...

Victoria said...

Rec'd email request to post from Carol:
Hi Tom,
Hope, what a wonderful thing it is. Go ahead enjoy the moments of hope all that it gives you. Down turns will always be around so we need to rejoice in moments of hope. God said without hope a people perish. Try doing a happy dance when these moments of hope happen cause it becomes a praise to our God. God is so amazing, faithful and good. You and your family have had a rough time so enjoy these special times. God wants you to have hope.
Blessings, Carol